When you think you are, you aren't...

It's Friday....another "Kompas Anak" is done....Well, to any of you out there who hasn't realized, i'm the one who's in charge for the layout of those four pages in Sunday's Kompas daily newspaper.

Ahhh......G5 has finally arrived....It's the latest and most advanced generation of Macintosh! Finally, a new computer for me! A new computer that truly can match up with the speed of my work!

Hahahaha!!

Anyway, that's not what i wanted to talk about in the first place!!!

Well. Let's touch the subject of love....I'm tired of talking bout life....Love is a tiny yet a part of life too.

What?! My love life?!

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What am I supposed to write about?

Okay, let's just start with trouble of mine in love. As many of you has NOT noticed..., I think I have a problem with older women....
Yes, i'm serious...Don't think i'm kidding...!

There's this 27 years old girl...Well someone i knew from my college time....
And there's this 26 years old girl in the same building i work at.....
And there's this girl 24 years old girl (well, though only 1 year older than me, it doesn't change the fact that she's older than me, rite?) in my office too....

What?! You think that's all?! Not really, there's still some more, but i don't think they're still "in contact" with me...

Those three girls are just my present condition, hahahaha....!!

That's not all.....Here comes the worst part:
All of them already have a boyfriend!!!

My God!!! What is wrong with me and girls-already-in-a-relation??!!!!!
Don't mind me...i'm just starting to think that i really have a knack with girls like tem....T_T

The strangest think is....What is wrong with them that makes them still (how should i say this?) flirting with me?!
Aww...come on guys, oops, i meant, girls!!! I know i'm handsome, i'm cute, funny, understanding, gentle, and tender....But that doesn't justify what you are doing to me? I want a relation that lasts....!!!

And the funny thing is....i'm fine with it!!! I don't have a problem with it....I don't mind at all....It's like i don't really want any of those girls to be serious with me....
Is it because of this 5-years-girl (NOTE: 5-years-girl, NOT 5-years-old-girl) that i become like this, being so carefree?
Or am i just still can't let her go....still can't let go of my feelings for her....still waiting for her?
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God knows....
It's just that, everytime i stopped doing anything, everytime i have the time to think about it deeply (though that time is sooooo rare), i got so depressed...No, depressed is to exaggerating.....Kinda like...stunned....pushed back, fell apart......It's not in my plan for me to become a person like this....I want to feel that love again, that true love when i'd really do anything, give anything, go anywhere; for her, and her alone.....

I REALLY, REALLY want to have that feeling again!!!!

Maybe not yet......Maybe that special girl that'd make feel true love again hasn't arrived yet in this boring life of mine.....

Until the day that girl stepped into my life....I'll patiently wait....I'll never stop believing.......I'll never let go of this faith that i have.....

Ahhh......what bull shit did i just wrote???!!!!!!

Never mind me......This is the kind of emotion I'm in every weekend...Kinda miss the routinity of office work.......Gosh, have i turned into a real workaholic.....
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On second thought....me...a workaholic?! Naaaahhhhh...not possible, not even the slightest chance, not in this life time!!! BWAHAHAHAHA....

So, enjoy your weekend....!!!

Lost and Found

It's Monday, almost nine AM.

Last night, when i was just about 2 text message my friend, a message came.

My friend just had a car accident!!!

The car crashed and rolled to its side. My friend got stucked on the bottom (the side of the car).

It was like a lightning.... It was 11:12 PM ~ i remember exactly the minute that text message came.

I just.....it just came to my mind....I never would want anything bad to happen to anyone around me.....But....some things are just not within our reach....
People come and go, that's the basic principle of life...But have you ever thought about death...?
About how death can be so close to someone precious to you, or even so close to you....?

There are some times, some circumstances, some conditions, some things, that are necessary 4 u 2 finally realize something.... When you're about 2 lose something, or someone, how will it affect your life?
But more importantly, when you lost someone close 2 u, something precious 2 u, how will it affect ur life?
They say, that we can only regret, and that it came after it was already too late... Have u ever thought about it?
Why do regrets come when it's too late...? (Namanya juga nyesel....mana ada nyesel duluan?! HAHAHAHA)

Oh, well.....It's just that....i learn something from this stupid something.....What you have 2 lose, is something 2 lose.... You can never hold onto something too tight....

Life is like a lost and found counter...... You lose some, you get some.....

PS: I forgot to mention something important. If you're wonderin' bout my friend, o well, nothing bad happened. Just some scratches on the leg....At least, now i'll just try to treasure that friend of mine better....'Cause u know...i've had my experience with "traffic accident that could've cost me my life" too, hehe

Well, well, have a pleasant day.....!

And try to treasure anything and anyone you have.....Coz you'll never know when its/their due date will be....=P (due date...emang kerjaan, pake begituan, hehehe...istilah gw terlalu kasar...maaf...hehehe)

Dashboard Confessional

It's like you're riding at 120 km/h....
You think you know what's ahead of you
You think you're ready for anything
You think you can increase the speed

Suddenly, a car in front of you hits the brake
That's what you get for speeding. hehehe

Nah...I was just kidding....

This morning was amazing..i left to work at 7.15, arrived at my office at 7.45....Wow...!

Mixed feelings...that's what I have right now

Smile, no matter what........

Nahhh....sometimes...i don't want to think too much about too many things....
So,i've decided.... i'll just smile and try to have a good day...hehe

For everyone out there...Just smile, and try to have good thoughts, no matter how hard life's been treating you......

I know it's not easy, but hard work pays, you know....=) I'll always believe that there are many things out there, many good things, waiting for us...

Wishful Thinking can't kill you, it just hurts...hehe

I'll always stand by you..those i love, please forgive me whenever i'm being such a child and so selfish.......................

So, are you going with me, or not? Come on into my car............

Don't hesitate, just trust me.....

Welcome aboard!
Have a nice day...just sit back and enjoy your ride....I'll drive safely, so don't worry.